Settling...

When you move away from everything you know, there is a moment when you feel like you will never feel 'at home,' at least that's how I felt. That feeling is one that comes to haunt you in the middle of the night or on the corner of oxford street, you'd be surprised how much 7,000 miles can change everything you've ever thought of before. I didn't think of how much everything was going to change in my life, before i came here. I thought that at the age of 23 I had figured out who I was going to be for the rest of my life, and all that would change from here on out was what I was going to do with my life. God, was I wrong! I am learning everything, one should learn at the age of 16, but I am learning it here in one of the greatest cities in the world. I am learning how to live and not depend on any one. I mean, waking up and not being able to talk to my 'close circle of friends' and make decisions solely on what I wanted or what I thought was best is a completely foreign concept to me. At home, I completely depended on those around me for answers never looking at what I needed. Here I don't have to and don't want to do that! I can live as completely selfishly as I want and don't have to apologize for it. While, it might seem like these are trivial concepts and like I must have experienced some of these things before, I feel like everything out here is completely new. I feel rejuvenated and like life is finally fun! With all of this, comes a feeling of settling.... I have finally settled into my home here and settled into my studies. I have finally found my rhythm and life is better than ever. More to come!